i dont have a good relationship with my mom

i honestly don’t see her as a mother because she was never there growing up. it was only my dad. and now i live with her js because she’s more well-off than my dad.

i don’t really like how she’s too controlling. i js got a new job and now she expects me to pay everything for myself like hello? im just a teen? she even has a control on my pay stubs and knows every time i get payed and how much is the exact amount. im working because i wanna earn money to buy some things that i want and for when i go to college when i need to buy some things there that i need.

you as a parent it’s ur responsibility to provide me my basic/essential needs. why did u fucking take me with you and took me away from my dad in the first place if you’re not even gonna fucking do the bare minimum as a parent?

every time she talks i just get annoyed and be impolite automatically. sometimes i do feel bad when i do that but i js can’t help the rage and anger im burying inside me. one time, we were in an argument and she told me that i’d get karma one day because of how i treat her (like i don’t treat her as my mom). she told me that when it’s time for me to have kids i’ll get karma and my kids would be disrespectful to me too.

i was just thinking at that time that i’ll make sure my future kids would never ever have to experience something like what my mom made me experience. i would never let my kids feel: uncomfortable in their own home, obligated to do anything that’s my responsibility as a parent to do, unheard or misunderstood by me.

i just didn’t like how she said that it’s gonna be my karma that my kids would disrespect me. because first off, reflect on yourself first maybe you’re the reason why your kid is rude to you.

i just wanna rant somewhere…