Why do I feel like no one sees me

I’ve always felt this way and never know how to word it besides feeling like no one sees me.

I feel like everyday I’m putting on a face for the world and have to be perfect. Look pretty, say the perfect things, almost like I’m acting every day. Even if I try and let my guard down and let someone in I feel like no one ever sees me.

Like they only see what they wanna see, guys seems as a body as something just to have fun with and it’s never anything more. Ive never been loved by any man for anything besides my body, not my mind or personality and I don’t think I ever will be. I don’t think anyone will ever truly love me for me or love my personality or just the essence of me. I feel like I always have to play the part of the pretty face and nothing else. Even when I don’t feel pretty. I feel like my looks is pretty much all I’m worth because no one seems to care to even get to know me, and when they do it’s only to get in my pants.

I genuinely don’t think I’ll ever experience being genuinely loved romantically. Maybe not even platonically. I feel like none of my friends even know me. They only see what they want to see. They don’t know see me either. No one does. I don’t even think anyone wants to. It’s such a lonely feeling, it makes me feel worthless like I’m just something to be used. Like I’m not even a human. All I am is what you see: black, a pretty face, an ugly face, a whore, whatever.

I hate it. I’ve always just wished I could feel like someone truly sees me