lost

ok basically, i don’t really have anywhere to dance within 3 hours from my house (my parents house i don’t have my own apt or anything yet i’m young:/) and i’ve tried finding somewhere around my bfs aswell & i just can’t, i’m really particular & personal reasons. i’ve been making the drive and staying in hotels but it’s just not realistic for long term but it’s like there’s nowhere im comfortable staying at for a long period of time, i want to go to school, maybe work diff jobs outside of dancing ect but i need like a good consistent club & a place i can comfortably exist before i can even think of those things. basically im constantly in survival mode and everything is putting a really bad strain on me. i’ve literally been crying everytime i have to drive, i’m super uncomfortable at my parents or my bfs house though because of outside reasons, i’ve never lived alone or had my own apartment i guess i’m like pretty childish & codependent but idk i feel like all my friends my age still live w their parents too but it’s not realistic for me anymore but neither is living in this entire state tbh. has anyone moved to a completely different state & made it work just dancing? i’m sick of driving & damaging my car, i’m sick of having to stay in hotels and then not being able to cook & focus on nutrition, gym ect. this type of system right now is so isolating, unhealthy & making me go insane i’ve been crying every day someone lmk that they’ve done this and it’s possible. all i see on here is “everywheres dead right now, economy ect” which i never take what’s on here as more than a grain of salt but like i said i’ve never tried to work out of state before so i have no idea how it’ll be? should i just fly there & try for like 2 weeks that sounds like wasting so much money like idek how to go about this:( advice pls