Not feeling well

Poora time bass sona just sleeping, jaise hi uth rahi hu it feels everything is dead , ghutan ho rhi hai mann kar rha h bass so jau nhi uthna mujhe want to sleep and sleep till this pain ends.

As soon as I'm awake reality stuck me and again it hurts it hurts so much I cannot even cry , cannot tell anyone. Being betrayed by a person whom i considered so close my friend ,I respected him. I just can't forget

The shock and all those things , guilt is eating me alive mujhe nhi pata mujhe kya karna chahiye sab kuch khtm ho chuka hai par it's all still with me. Some people come in your life to destroy to give you trauma.

I cannot sleep mujhe jaagna hai par it's hurting. I am not well