I have never experienced loneliness until now

So I live with some family members, our power was out because of some snow, two of the family members decided to leave but before that we got into some argument.

Me and my other relative decided to go out too because we were getting cold. We ate and after that our other relatives showed up with some mutual friends.

They were all drinking and vibing but I just didn’t want to be there! I can’t really come back home because there was no power but also I realized I had nobody to call.

I literally started going through contacts, Yk looking for someone who’d actually show up if I called them. There were none.

I wanted to make it short so I skipped a lot of stories in between but that feeling really sucks.

There will be moments even small when you’d deeply need someone but just nobody comes to mind. Of course Yk people but Yk their situation at the moment so you kinda know already they won’t show up. So you just sit and wonder 💭