I think I had my major egg crack moment...

Trying this again, new account and got AutoModded due my account being brand new. It's been a few days so hopefully this one is able to post 🖤 this was written a few days ago as I was experiencing the moment.

So I've been questioning for a while... 30s amab married to a woman. Had feelings through my life but pushed them down but recently been really allowing myself to question and explore gender privately.

The most public thing recently was finally painting my nails, which brought me a lot of happiness and didn't get any scrutiny from work, friends, extended family, etc. My wife even offered to redo them when saw them. (She did a much better job)

But with that confidence, today I took a further step and in private put a full fem outfit on, and did my long hair in a slightly more fem way, in a style that really appealed to me. As a guy the feelings I have of myself overall are very neutral to negative, so I was expecting that I'd hate how this looked, especially since I still have full facial hair, didn't do makeup or anything. But I just needed to try.

However seeing myself in that outfit, even despite all that, made me start to tear up over how much I liked it. How much it felt right. Thinking I actually looked cute in the mirror. Every glimpse of a reflection made me happy.

I think this was the major egg crack. I don't know if I'm trans... But whatever I felt was extremely strong. I was honestly really hoping I didn't feel that way because I've been dreading this conversation with my wife, hoping this would all go away eventually and I could go back to normal...

... It's not going to go away is it?