Feeling selfish..

I (22 ftm) am having my partner (21 mtf) stay over for the weekend. We had plans tonight of being intimate. We both got drunk, and she’s fallen asleep on the couch downstairs. I asked if she wanted to come to bed upstairs to which she said no, so I covered her in a blanket, set some water and pain meds aside for her, and went up to the bedroom. I don’t know,, we both had talk of being intimate tonight and even prepped for it. I just. I feel so selfish.. I wish so badly that we could’ve done something tonight. But instead we both had too much to drink. I’m just. I don’t get to see her often. And we both said tonight would be fun for us. I’m just a bit disappointed, cause I had been looking forward to it all day. I wouldn’t do anything do to her while she’s drunk ofc, I want to respect her wishes and safety. I’m just upset.. I haven’t seen her in a while, and we made plans for tonight.. I’m just. I don’t feel wanted by her anymore. I don’t know what to do .. I feel so stupid .. I don’t want to do anything while we’re both under the influence and for god sake she’s asleep and told me no, so I’m obviously not gonna do anything. I just feel upset because I feel like there’s been such a strain recently… I’m so tired and I never feel wanted by her anymore.. I’m tired of setting stuff up only for it to be half-assed or just dismissed … I don’t know what to do anymore and I’m so upset and tired ..