I don’t know how to experiment

I’m coming into my late 20’s and I still haven’t figured it out. It’s like 10% of the time and exclusively behind closed doors I want to be completely different. I don’t even think I could date a man; I don’t find them as attractive as women. Hookups seem overwhelming and potentially dangerous. But for years I’ve exclusively dated women and almost exclusively watched gay porn. I periodically get more and more comfortable with my dildo and it just makes me want the real thing even more. I wish I could just break the wall down in myself to make the leap because I’m in a dry spell with women and I know I’m very popular among guys. This would make a perfect time for slutting out and getting through all my fantasies