Help me get over this dumb mental block? (We're Here newsletter)

This is about the We're Here newsletter. I really like this newsletter. I love the concept of it, and I've found some great stuff through it. I was one of the original people to sign up, right when it was first announced. I distinctly remember Hank mentioning that the first bunch of people would be part of a 'founders club' (or something like that) and that he didn't know if they would ever wind up doing anything with that but it would be a thing regardless (if something has already been done with this club, I guess I've missed it, I'm not as up to date with the newsletter as I'd like to be) I was genuinely ecstatic either way to have made it into the ground floor in that way, especially in this community that means so much to me - it's an opportunity I don't feel like I often have, so I truly cherish it.

I'm at a point now where I would really like to prioritise this newsletter again as a way to spend my time, and a good way to connect with this community. However, here's my issue - I'm trans, and have since made a new email ID for myself that uses the name I prefer to go by. The fact that my subscription is tied to my old email id has made me hesitant to open it up, and also makes me feel icky about responding/interacting as it would have my deadname tied to it. Normally of course I would simply subscribe again with my newer email id and that would be that, except that I genuinely feel sad about not being able to take that 'founders club' status with me and now I'm just stuck. This might seem silly, I feel silly typing it, especially seeing as it might not even be significant, but it does feel significant to me and I'm not sure how to get past this hang up.

I really hate letting go of the original account where I've been receiving the newsletter right from the very start and managed something that felt significant to me, and I just can't bring myself to simply start a fresh new subscription on my new email, but at the same time I also can't bring myself to even open and read the newsletter these days because it's on the old account.

I took a shot and tried emailing the newsletter ID explaining this situation and seeing if there was a way they could just transfer my existing subscription to my new email ID, but they never responded. I'm now turning to this community, I figure it's a long shot that anything will actually happen but at the very least I thought I might find some understanding and advice for how to move past this to actually be able to start interacting with the newsletter the way that I want to.

I'd also really appreciate any info at all about the aforementioned "founders club" that might help me tackle this mental block..

Thank you for reading all this. I feel very silly but still very stuck...

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