Pata hai aaj kya hua.

I finally said no to a girl 20F who proposed me 30M. 

For context, I’m single and honestly going through a rough phase in life. I tend to overthink a lot. Because of that nature, I lost most of my college friends, and my 7 year relationship also ended. It ended pretty sadly, and I admit it was mostly because of my own faults. In the end, she didn’t marry me.

A few months ago I met this girl on Snapchat. Initially we were just talking as friends, normal conversations, nothing serious. But a few weeks ago she suddenly proposed me.

The first thing I asked her was - “Tumhe pata hai na main kitne saal ka hoon aur tum kitni ho?”
She said yes, she knows, and that it doesn’t matter to her.

But honestly, my overthinking brain just wouldn’t let me move forward with it. The 10 year age gap kept bothering me. I slowly started becoming distant, and today I finally told her no.

One big reason is that I don’t want people to see me as some predator or creep chasing younger girls. I know the internet can be brutal with labels like that.

Ironically, in my 7 year relationship, I never pushed for sex because I always believed in keeping that for after marriage.

Maybe I’m overthinking again. Maybe I’m just scared after everything that happened in the past.

Bas… aaj yeh hua...

20F proposed to me (30M), but I rejected her because the age gap and my past messed with my head