Being bigger has always felt right - 20M

20m 260 lbs 6'1"

Rant post, hopefully someone finds it hot.

I'm not sure if it was something in my childhood, or some other psychological coincidence that has led me to who I am; but being bigger (fatter, stronger, bigger muscles) has always felt "right" to me.

When I get sick and loose some of the weight, I feel too light. When my belly/thighs/ass shrink, something doesn't look right to me. Nothing feels better to me then being sore from a workout and stuffed so full even my stomach blushes.

It makes me so happy feeling the two types of big overlap. I love feeling my belly touch the ground while doing pushups, and how it rests on my thighs while doing squats. It makes me giddy when I do the math on my pr squat and deadlift, when I try to figure out how much fat I'm lifting with the barbell. Measuring a full rep of a bench press my feeling the bar squish the softness of my chest makes my heart flutter. And it's so god-damned hot doing a deadlift and having the bar get caught on my belly.

And my truly favorite aspect? I love how other gym goers react: the look of shock when the fat guy doubles their pr, the quite comments calling me fat fuck/lazy/flabby/etc, and the questioning looks from less judgy people wondering how I'm so big despite how often they see me at the gym.