Just venting

Be kind please

I'm attracted to older men “not everyone i have my type” not seeking here!

I struggle with daddy issues.

But my attraction is more emotional because I need that kind of affection, guidance, and love.

I also need a role model to correct the negative stereotypes left by my abusive, pedophilic father.

My request feels exceptional and fantastical, and I can't bring myself to express it to anyone around me. God knows how I'll find what I'm looking for except in Paradise, I hope.

Men's primary focus in psychology is purely sexual, and I know how men view women. My father distorted my understanding of everything healthy between spouses because of his pathological obsession with raising me and abusing me.

I know Psychiatry is the solution "maybe” 🥲

so sad and depressed my brain is refusing men but my instinct is fine

I have experienced multiple sexual orientations, and made incorrect life and friendship choices due to the poor relationship between my parents and me.