Need help with exploring...

How do you explore stuff like clothing, social interactions, cosmetics and more (other than, like, shaving...) while having an incompatible body?

I've gone through male puberty, and my body is (in my opinion) too tall and wide to "fit" into clothing I like. I'm even too scared to use feminine soap or deodorant, because it will out me as trans or make me a weirdo.

I'm in the process of gathering resources for medical transition, but I'm impatient.

Any tips?

Help :(

[I mean I guess it's just the cishet normative brainwashing at play, but I don't think I can get rid of that easily...]