I feel like a loser

I’m 24F for the record. I don’t know how to describe it. I still live with my parents (it’s actually not unusual at all in my country to live with your parents up until you move out with a partner). I dropped college because I can’t stand studying. I am finding really hard to study anything. I’ve never had a real job besides my parents’ family business. But along the way right after I dropped college I took upon my own path/career. I took some diplomas and trained for some years and hopefully this September or October I’ll be able to open my own studio. I’ll technically have my own job finally. It will be based on my passion in life so it’s worth it. I never ask money from my parents. I have my own wallet, I help in the house with house chores and I do the cooking.

So I mean someone would say that these are not wrong. At least I hope they are not. I believe my man problem is that I can’t find friends and romantic relationships. I’ve tried so many times but I think people just don’t like me. I’m always somebody’s last choice. I’m in peoples minds but when their first choices can’t make it. I’m not sure if that makes sense. I believe that’s why I feel like a loser. I can’t do the most basic thing an adult should. I believe I’m in the spectrum and I’m a bit weird. I’m trying to fix that but I don’t think I’m trying hard enough.