I'm tired of sleepless nights

Been struggling with this for 15 years now.

Every night I actually sleep around 2 am if not more.

It's every I have thoughts. Thoughts of me being transgender mtf. And my possible dysphoria.

And they just keep louder and louder.

Would seek help but living in Arizona and in the US, it's not the best idea.

I'm just extremely tired. I tried melatonin tea. I tried regular sleep tea. I tried meditation. Etc. And nothing really works.

Infact meditation just makes things worse and worse.

TBH i'm just running on fumes now.

Just wish for one night that I would get some decent sleep but I guess that's to much to ask