It was so wild, I didn't believe I could do it!~

Im a 38F cougar, and been doing well for myself since my ex husband left me. Ever since then I focused on my mental, physical, and emotional health. Although I was doing so well I couldn't help, but fall in love with sex and porn. Every Sunday I would close my windows and use the day to "unwind" in anyway I could. Eventually it always lead to porn and masterbation. On type caught my eye (and pussy) the most, and it was cougars with younger men. I fell in love completely to the idea of fucking younger men. So I started going clubbing, and picking up some drunk or cute men. But after about 70 ish guys I couldn't feel loved, or wanted. So one day I went to the mall and saw what most would call "unattractive" or "not fuckable" kind of guy. I just kept thinking about how cute he was. As I was having trouble looking through hot topic for a gift for my friend's daughter, he came behind me asking me about some of the characters. I couldn't hold back my staring and blushing. Innocently he asked if he said something wrong, I said that he didn't and if he could help me pick something put for the gift. I told her some of her interests, and he smiled and asked if i could follow him since he knew a shop that had something for her. I followed obviously I started thinking some rather, naughty things I wanted to do if it wasn't indecent~ After he helped me pick out the gift, I asked if he wanted to follow me around since I was all by myself and after a second he admitted he was alone to. My heart was racing, and I took his hand and pulled him into a hug and kissed his head. He was flustered and it was so adorable. So I took him to help me pic some outfits out, and after I asked why he came to the mall. After being eith me he completely forgot. I pulled him into the changing room and then asked him if he could come with me home to help with something only a "strong boy" like him could help with. And god his bliss was amazing, as he said yes I felt my body Twitch. This was the one I could feel it. I asked how old he was, and he said 19 I knew that if we did fuck he was gonna be really durable. After getting into my house, I had him wait on my couch with a drink and some snacks before going to my room. I stripped down and dressed into one of the outfits he chose, and walked out to be with him. We talked, and just had a great time. Once I felt comfortable and he was relaxed I started flirting, and Innocently he started praising and complimenting me. It got me so worked up, more than I thought it would. Once we got personal I decided to rub his inner thigh and flirt more intimately. He was flustered and asked what I was doing, and I admitted that ever since I layed my eyes on him I just couldn't help but crave him. He was in shock and I felt his cock, while not big but his bulge. I asked him if he would let me, and if he didn't we could just forget my mature lust and ignore it. But he looked at me, and said that he wouldn't mind but also he was a virgin. After hearing that I decided that not only am I taking his virginity, but that I will make him feel the love he gave me.

I might make another confession about that, but for now let me just say it was the best 3 hours I ever had. Also boys and girls, remember size isn't everything as long as you know how to use it. Anyway it has been 4 months and he is the only cock I ever need or want now. I share him with some of my friends, and I wouldn't mind sharing him with women in the situation I was in. Also before anyone asks, he is the most affectionate and caring boy ever so I definitely feel loved and wanted now.