I’m a burden cuz I’m not capable of anything

Since 2017 I’ve been ill idk what disease I’ve got but it’s not stress I’ve shared my story in my previous post but got no response so I’m sharing again

It feels like I want to live but my body doesn’t support

I want to do many things and being productive but my body doesn’t allow me it just don’t cooperate

Sometimes I wish I should have died instead of being burden to my family

I just can’t breathe without pain in my abdomen back and stomach I can’t take deep breaths

I don’t wanna continue living like this

I want to get rid of this

I’ve Changed multiple Dr but no Dr could diagnose what’s wrong as every reports came normal I was also on psychiatric medication but that too didn’t help I’m still suffering and I don’t want to continue suffering because in other ppl’s perspective I’m just a lazy , manipulative, liar , girl who just loves making excuses but trust me it hurts IT HURTS A LOT 💔