Feel ignored regularly (17M)

Okay so I used to have intense social anxiety before (till 10th) I came in 11th (got busy in jee and all) and made many good new friends(love them).. Enjoyed a lot these 2 years. It cooled down my society anxiety (I will have it, but less) I don't know much how to communicate with people, I don't know what to talk, how to say ,what to reply. Basically I suck at communication and my voice is shit. The main reason people respect and know me is that I am decent in studies and all(which angers me so much)

Nowadays I feel that my friends ignore me, don't pick up my calls, ignore me irl. Even the friends closest to me don't feel so close now.. Like they will choose the friend they made later on over me (who was from before) So yeah that pisses off, combined with that i look/seem weird.

And yeah I suck at expressing emotions, even to myself, which makes me suck it all up and be emotionally unavailable to certain topics. Also I fake my personality so much sometimes to fit into people but irl I am just stupid and boring. Poor at sports, etc.

So yeah just wanted to vent out because idk what to say or do.

What y'all thik?