Me and my friend of almost 4 years had a misunderstanding and may never talk again.

(Long story ahead) I don't even know where to start haha, I have this girl friend of mine that I've known for a long time now, we met at highschool and now we're at 2nd year college, almost 3rd, and we might've just had the WORST argument ever.

We both take Psychology and are on the same class. She wanted education or business since she wanted to be a CEO since Highschool, and still kind of blames me that shes not happy anymore in the program lol, and I also wanted something else, Information Tech or something about arts, I didn't PERSUADE her, she chose that by herself and before classes started she suddenly told me she took THE SAME AS ME so we can be together😩

Tbh my parent's have never liked her since she's the type to be so... Independent and closed off, by that I mean, when there's important events at our University or need to pay tuition, she'd never ask me if I'm done or if I wanna come with her, meanwhile, my old friends (which was part of our circle) would always inquire on me If I wanna come or if I need some company since I'm introverted and shy.

Our misunderstanding was about ME looking like I had a problem with her. Just last Month for a preliminary exam, I didn't really talk to her whole day because I was Grieving, My grandfather just passed away a day ago, I was about to fail in some classes and my Family was having some money issues, but I guess she didn't understand that at all and made it look like nothing about what's happening with me was "Valid" 🤷🏻‍♀️

We did talk about it a week after, I explained to her that I have NO PROBLEM and that I was grieving and need time, she didn't respond to that and left me on read. I said sorry like TWICE, she said none.

I've told her countless times as a lighthearted comment since 3 years ago that I LOVE MY SPACE when I'm upset, sad or moody, she'd always say "ME TOO", and not to mention, she just experienced what I did, She grieved too to her Grandfather just a year ago so I for real thought she'd atleast understand me at all or atleast have some respect, our other friends in University have said "Condolences" to me and was comforting me (before we had the argument) but her? She never said a thing and would always say she's "BUSY" with our research (Mind you we were in thesame research group, we DON'T do much, only problem is she'd always WANT to do everything by herself to look "Invested and Smart'").🤦🏻‍♀️

I don't have beef with her, really, but ever since I've been busy on my own path before the argument, I started a little Business for myself making keychains and flowers, I was doing Youtube too (I earn from it) and Lately thinking about getting into some call center or maybe starbucks as pastime for my tuition, she got MAD at it and called it being "Distracted and out of line"??? 😐 I never even told her much about it anymore since then since she thinks so low of whatever I do, and That's fine, she's privileged with money.

I don't talk to her anymore, I don't sit close to her and would sit somewhere else, We're still on the same research group but I was thinking of leaving and join a new one so I could function properly and help more freely (and not feel awkward).

I feel more relax and at ease after that, no pressure and all, maybe I did the right thing to not bother her again.