Just thought I'd intoduce myself

Hey folks , so I just discovered this sub today and omg hello , I already feel heard and understood and iv not even spoke to a single sole here yet . Sorry if I start rambling but iv been physically shaking for a good hour know running through how I'm going to post this because it's probably gonna be a lot for me to get out , but yeah basically I'll think iv just found my true family so thanks for that already. So basically i(29m)have basically felt alone in my thoughts for as long as I remember, Even though I have the most supportive partner I could ask for, I'm not diagnosed with any conditions but damn they wouldn't have a problem pointing them out ,id say my sexual thoughts started after being S/A by my grandparents neighbour(female a few years older than me ) now I didn't even register this as abuse until I finally told my girlfriend about it after a night of drinking etc ....now I'm definitely not mad it happened but it absolutely fucked me up , then followed by more experinces and trauma! Im not mad about or regret any experience or trauma just looking to embrace me! Fast-forward to today , early experiences defo attribute to my long list of kinks and thought s also my emotions are all over the place and some days it haunts me and some days I jump on the crazy train and enjoy every moment, Iv also recently came out as bisexual to my partners and holy fuck that was liberating, I however have came to realize I hate labels but for arguments sake I'd say I'm actually pansexual, people are wonderful and I love and embrace that ! I have wild thoughts about almost anyone I come across in life and my curiosity of their sexual activity always comes to mind , friends colleagues strangers anyone really , I also have a massive foot fettish which I drives me absolutely wild and yeah sexy feet are everywhere so that's a constant reminder that my brain just wants to wander all the time I'd say I'm an introvert but I'm genuinely only thinking about a lot of this recently as a way to understand everything abit more , I'm gonna stop for now but I have so much more I want to get of my chest and I just want to thank you all again for reading this far and for creating a community that listens , Im hopeful for replys and look forward to the possibility of new friendships ( because damn I defo need a friend ) peace out !!