How do I stop intentionally looking at transphobic social media?

I often times intentionally seek out transphobic twitter accounts, YouTube videos or subreddits and I always feel terrible after looking at them, but for some reason I keep coming back to them. Sometimes I’ll also intentionally look for depressing or negative trans news. I’m not really sure if this is a common thing or not, but it’s kind of become weirdly addicting to me even though I never feel good afterwards.