I don't know what to make of this.

I had another dream about the girl the night before last.

We were at a social gathering. I saw her with this guy who went to the same school as me and her (the same guy I saw her with once at Ingles back when I worked there - roughly 2 years ago). We were all sitting at this large rectangular shaped table playing a card game or something. Eventually, her and a bunch of people there went outside to play volleyball. When I saw her outside, I decided to go outside because I wanted to sort of get her attention. I also remember thinking that I wanted to "show her what I can do" lol. I've always liked sports and been pretty good at them.

All of us were in a rectangular formation again which doesn't make sense because that's not how volleyball is played. For some reason I didn't end up actually playing. A little while later a bunch of us were in a room. We were all talking and trying to decide what we wanted to do next and eventually everyone left the room except the girl. I walked out of the room and was about to go up some stairs but then I realized that now was the perfect opportunity to talk to her.

I remember thinking, "I should just ask if she wants to hang out sometime." I was nervous and hesitant. The dream ended before I could talk to her.

I kind of feel like my subconscious is trying to tell me that even if I got another opportunity to talk to her, I would just chicken out again.

On another note, I'm going to try shrooms for the first time soon (probably either Sunday or sometimes next week), so we'll see how that goes. I'm hoping that'll clear some things up but we'll see.