"Deirdre? is that you?" am i.. or am i not...

*light flashes as nishatom enters the one and only afterlife, its... a different plane of existence, thankfully it seems the devourer didn't take his soul, he let it go into the afterlife.

"ay? what was that sorcery.." *nish looks to find his sword or armor but they're gone. what he has with him is his body, some clothing ofc and.. a old crown... he... remembered?*

"what may this be? a familiar object.. many questions i have, but one being answered forms two more.. why.. how.. where.. what, am i, or am i not... alive?"

*he traverses the fields for a longer period of time, they seem to be constantly warping, into different environments, some pleasant, some seem chaotic

suddenly he now in his kingdom, but it's empty, the kingdom warps showcasing changes but... when? what period of time is it of his kingdom that is molding*

"this feels like a familiar era in my kingdom but... am i.. or am i not.. there?"

*nishatom hears voices echoing through the fields but pays no attention to them, he swears some of them are familiar like a child's laughter, once again asking himself*

"am i.. or am i not... remembering something?"

*a certain field is molded, one with a massive flat land, tall mountains, and..*

"now what could this be-... no no no no, it cant be, can it? am i.. or am i not.. thinking straight.. no no NO, NO, IT-.... Why must i be reminded, who wants me to still see IT! I hate you, whoever is reminding me of this, i despise you.. you ruined this for me."

*the more the emotional tumor grows on him the more weaker he felt then.. a combustion occurred sending him falling into what seemed like a voice but a deity of every color of the rainbow caught him, and sent em back onto the ground*

"am i.. or am i not.. fine?"

*nishatom eventually hears a very familiar voice echoing from somewhere and a light pursued it, he followed the light.*

"am i.. or am i not.. gonna question what is happening right now."

*the more he follows the light, he sees the visions of times he.. enjoyed, liked, with..*

"deirdre? is that... i don't know anymore."

*eventually the voice turned from a majestic woman's to a child*

"am i.. or am I not.. being messed with here? is this trickery?"

*the child's joy continues and the child calls for his father as well, whoever the father is... nishatom may know who... nish then hears a voice of himself talking to someone*

"He'll touch the skies, he'll reach levels i never got to, I'll name him, Icarus."

*he hears him and the one who he calls his love talking, he eventually sheds literal tears, he might've finally realized it*

eventually, he reaches the summit, the summit is reached and he could see the sun, as he was on a very tall mountain and the mystic figure appeared before him.. and..

"Am i.. or am i not.. there yet?* he sees her* Deirdre? my love? is it... *panting* i-i-ITS YOU! Deirdre-.. *as our man desperately tries to run towards her, he's pulled back by a unknown force* NO, NO NO! Icarus! DEIRDRE... "*

he's dragged back by the laws of physics itself working against him, but, even then, he manages to still get somewhat near his love, even tho the universal rules are working in impossible ways to be against him, basically somewhat bypassing the laws and perhaps time itself, the situation got so hectic, the fabric of reality in the afterlife was torn in the area he was in , splitting him and deirdre apart... once again..*

"NOOO, WHY, AM I.. OR AM I NOT FACING REALITY?!"

*the fabric of reality being torn split them like the titanic breaking apart sending him down, down down down, as he burns with rachium as he falls fast and steadily (picture dramatic and sad music playing here) , he lands causing a massive shockwave in a 50km radius, flames spread but tears fall from his eyes and a struggle to comprehend what happened, he fell for 2 minutes straight.*

the man that is every colour of the rainbow appeared and said, "Courage and hope is a weapon I forbid the usage of here!! You really messed shit up didn't you? the cosmos are burning, courage is a weapon you used on levels unaccounted for."

nishatom- "YOU SEPERATED ME DIDN'T YOU?!" *nishatom tries to lunge at him with speed of sound+ levels of speed but.. the rainbow man dodges them all, and takes his cain and smacks his scepter at him calming his anger down kind of*

rainbow man- "i didn't do anything.. this is your mind mostly plus the other rules of the afterlife.. am sorry what happened to you." *the rainbow man disappears immediatly*

*nishatom suddenly remembers earlier in this afterlife when he said he hated someone who caused this experience and*

" **Am i.. or am i not?** the villain.. I caused this, I did this, I... WHY DO YOU LIVE *talking to himself as a reflection of him appears* SHE... SHE COULD'VE HAD ANY BETTER MAN BUT SHE CHOSE YOU.. and you... why, I hate you... I hate myself, I couldn't do shit- *a more sad and crying tone* NOOOoo. I failed you, I failed my kingdom, I failed my.. lineage.. my kingdom right now? no no no... NO, what about them, am gone and... no... FUCK. am gone and... If they push through, my friends.. maybe they're better off without my incompetency.. **Am i.. or am i not.. a failure?** "