im so pathetic oml

wenever i have a crush on someone i just go fucking obsessed, its like if i see some1 wit them or them mentioning anyone or idk less interested it feels like my heart is getting broken in pieces, and then i go distance myself bc jon wanna get hurt, but theyre all i have i dont have anyone else, so i come back, and then get attached again. it feels like walking on nails. im so friggin happi wen im their center of attention jdk but i sob wen jm not even tho its not even like we're dating or that close yet. j know them for almost a year and theyre the coolest person ik of and kinda my only friend. i dont wanna lose them idek atp and they do care about me but i just do it more intensely oh lord