I’m struggling

My best friend and girlfriend of nearly 5 years ended things on a bombshell with me this morning.

I am completely distraught and genuinely don’t know what to do. She was the first person I’d go to in a bad situation. I miss her already, I still love her and I feel like I didn’t get to say things properly this morning because I was in shock and too upset.

I don’t have motivation to do anything right now. I’ve got university assignments due soon. I have a chronic disease which gets worse with stress. I don’t want to eat or drink. I can literally feel my chest aching. I don’t know who to talk to, I wasn’t close with anybody in my life except her.

I am in need of a cuddle from her specifically it feels like. I want to talk to her but people always frown upon sending messages to an ex. I genuinely have no idea what to do I feel awful.

I don’t remember having an ounce of sadness like this in the 7 years I’ve known her.