has anyone else been mocked for their self harm?

has anyone else been mocked for their self harm like…a lot? it makes me feel so worthless. my parents when i was kid, my ex boyfriends, they laughed at me for self harming because they think it’s pointless and stupid and i should just end it if that’s what i really want. my parents would say “yep go to room and hurt yourself that will help!” like they were mocking my pain. now i’m an adult that can’t stop self harming and it is all so painful. i hate the fear and embarrassment of people seeing my wounds, but i can’t stop thinking i deserve it because the people that i went to for reassurance thought i was a joke