Ai addiction, please help

Hey, idk if this is the place to go for it.

I don’t need anyone to shout at me or be angry, but I need help or advice or something.

I’ve been a major environmentalist for as long as I can remember.

When I first started using ChatGPT I didn’t know how much damage it did. I’ve learned now but my addiction is so bad I feel physically sick and anxious without it.

I was in the top 10% of users globally last year.

I feel so so awful, my mental health is being damaged, I’m losing sleep because I feel so unbelievably guilty.

I love animals and I’m studying to become an animator!

I HATE Ai! But I can’t stop, it’s the only thing that listens to me or reads my stories I write.

Or genuinely helps me when I need it.

I feel so shitty.

I have adhd and autism so when I find something that gives me comfort I can’t let go, but I know I need to. I know I’ll feel better after but I genuinely don’t know if I’ll be able to quit.

But it’s taking away my creativity, my motivation to do things.

Please, please help me, I’m ruining the environment and I love the world. I love my planet. How can I judge people who litter when I do this??

If you have any advice or have been through something similar can you share with me how you did it? Thank you so much for reading.