I need help in politics!

4 days ago, my crush asked me about my political ideologies , and mind u he was 18 and im 15. He was really into politics and I wasnt ready for this question. I hate to admit that I wanted to impress him even tho I had no idea about politics. I asked chatgpt for help ( I feel so bad asking Ai for help ) and I told him I was leaning liberal cause the definition seemed simple ( mind u I know nothing about politics) He kept ranting about it and I kept asking Ai for help. In that moment , I realized how clueless I was in politics and I felt so dumb. I cried the whole night and the next day I wanted to learn more about it but idk where to start ; my sister and my crush ( lets call him apple ) are both communists, so I decided to dig in it. The only thing I knew from digging is that capitalism is bad since it makes rich people richer and poor people poorer. I also learned that there was someone named Che Guevara. I like him since I read his history. I live the way he love justice and his revolution and the way he wants best for every country. I really liked apple ( still do ) and I wanted to impress him but I soon realized that I should be learning for myself not others. I stopped using Ai and started supporting Palestine more ( I used to not boycott ) I feel so bad admitting this but I need help learning what I need to learn from communism, capitalism, fascism, socialism ... HELP ME PLEASE!! I feel really bad not knowing about whats happening in our planet and I kept crying , I talked w my sister but she doesn't really want to talk. I hope I dont face criticism , I just want to learn ( mind u I dont understand strong words )