43 [M4F] #NYC - Drain me before my divorce?

Judge if you will; she led us here.

Wife of 5+ years (10+ together total) told me she has given up on us and wants out a few weeks ago, no conversation about working on it, no asking for my input, nothing. Just... done. (I wasn't happy in this relationship for a while either - so it wasn't a complete shock - but no warning from her on this major life decision whatsoever, which hurts almost more the choice itself.) We haven't had sex in forever though, so in that respect, this was basically done a long time ago.

I'm going to move out next week before the lawyers get involved, and we've never so much as gotten to 2nd base in the place we live in right now (where we've been for quite some time.) No fucking, no fondling, no fooling around of aaaaaaany kind. So.... maybe I go out with a little karmic exclamation point? After all, she never "christened" this place with me, so why shouldn't you?!?!

I'm tall, decently fit, pretty fun to chat with (or, at least, to anyone else but her, it seems), and, well.... pretty long and thick too, and extremely pent up because she didn't appreciate that part of me at all these last few years.

Maybe I'm a bad person for this post? Sure, I hear that. But maybe, on the other hand, I kind of deserve this "release", for faithfully tolerating our dead-bedroom, her lack of passion/ intimacy, and the complete communication breakdown for so long? Who knows...