Am I Worthless?

Hey everyone, I honestly don't know why I'm writing this text, I guess I just needed to share. I've been living as a student in the Netherlands for a while now, and all I want to do is become a bus driver. Be a bus driver, buy a car, buy a house and thats it. But I'm from a non-EU country, and I feel like the I am getting punished for it, something that I didn't had a choice on. Idk, I always try to do the right things, be kind, respectful, being a good person overall. And I just want to be happy, you know? But I don't think it's going to work out, I feel like being a happy normal citizen is just banned for me. So I just wanted to ask, am I really that worthless to just have a happy life?