33 [M4F] # Online - How being cheated on changed my life.

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33 male with an average build on the thinner side but not skinny. Ill explain my experience below. I don't get as much attention on here as other places in the past so I would love feedback also.

I have always had conflicting feelings. I used to be a switch, and would normally be shoehorned into a dominate role. I had a few exchanges where I played the submissive role. At one point I started crossdressing in secret and around that same time I discovered a partner had cheated on me as she decided to leave. Despite being very angry, I discovered that for some reason it also kind of turned me on. Slowly over time the ideas merged in my head and I also discovered chastity. I would find myself fantasizing about the idea of having a girlfriend who forced me to wear chastity and treated me like a girl while they cheated on me. The humiliation of being forced to basically become their girlfriend flooded my thoughts.

After a few years of this, for a short period I somewhat experienced this. A girl kept me locked, dressed me up at times, pegged me a few times, cheated on me openly, and teased me relentlessly. It was very difficult to adapt and accept and often did hurt, but through the pain I found pleasure and felt a desperation that would lead to unmatched orgasams, even when locked.

I still dress up occasionally and will self lock for extended periods of time. Sometimes an ex FWB will hold my key. She says "I wont help you play because of my relationship, but can help you in not playing" usually with a giggle that sends waves through my body.