three years free

i don’t know how to process this. it’s been 3 fucking years since my treatment ended. it feels like yesterday. now the odds of the cancer coming back are even less ( that makes me happy). but it also reminds of the time when i went through this fucking disease ,and it actually scares me , if i get a second diagnosis i would rather die than go through this hell hole again. i was 16 when i was diagnosed and am 19 now. but google says that the radiation and chemo i recieved will increase the chance of me getting cancer later in life.