Why am i unable to use ball pens

Hello everyone... I have been meaning to make this post from a long time cuz i am genuinely puzzled.

I love pens. I like to write with them and like the various designs of ball pens out there. However it seems god is cruel in cursing my hand. I can never finish a ball pen. It usually starts out nice and ends up fading into whiteness eventually. The fading happens when i roughly finish just the 1/7 to 1/8th of the pen refill. This forces me to throw the majority of the ink into dustbin

The only pen i can finish is the Pilot BP1 RT (M) i dont know why except this pen no other pen last that long. This problem has been ther for the last 15 years in my life. Yes i have tried a lot of different ball pens but none of them finish. My friends and everyone around me can finish a pen but i cant completely use a ball pen. The ink just fades and i cant do much after that. I have tried messing around with the angle, pressure, the paper but nothing seems to work. Nothing goes past the 1/7th line and it is driving me crazy 😢. Sometimes like once every six months a pen may be finished fully without fading. This ball pen restriction has forced me to use ink and gel pens which i am not a fan of. (I just want to write with ball pens lol) I think the 1mm ball pens last longer than the 0.7mm but tht too marginally. I wish someone can just say wht is this curse on my right hand. Yes i have discussed this with everyone and they think it is rhe most bizzare thing and NO ONE RELATES.

TLDR: cant write with any ball pen. NEED HELP!