I want to do everything I can before I take my life

I love my family my friends and everyone who cares it’s just hard to keep going knowing my gf left this earth, I keep myself distracted and it’s still not enough. They say it takes time but this life is not made for me I wish I could say I want to stay but really it’s hard and I don’t want to live. I’ll keep fighting for the moment but I feel like I’m going to see the other side soon thank you for reading.