I’m fine until I’m not…

Tomorrow is my first day of class in a few months and my symptoms are flaring up. I’m on two different meds for my POTS (a beta blocker and a migraine med) and for the most part I get through the day with little to no symptoms. That is, until I have something to be anxious about. My HR has been hovering at 100 all day either sitting or laying down. I’ve felt sick and I’m scared I won’t be able to make it to class/ will have to fully drop out. I use thc to help with nausea/ eating, but I feel very guilty using it (even though I KNOW it helps.) I don’t want to rely on it, but I also don’t want to feel sick all the time :( I’m planning on going early so I can settle in but I just hope my body pulls it together.