can anyone relate to this?

hi im 18f and i dont know whats happening honestly.

i have severe depression rn and i have very little friends (1-2 guy friends).

my friend asked for some nudes yesterday and at first i was like absolutely not cause ive never done that and im not the type to do this since im very insecure about my body.

when he asked tho i thought about it and honestly i almost did.

i tried to think about why i was feeling like that all of a sudden and i think it might be that i hate myself so much that id be ready to just throw everything out.

i honestly feel like my body isn’t mine anymore.

this really isnt making much sense but i just needed to know if anyone has ever felt like this, like ive been against that stuff my whole life but right now it seems like i should do it?? its so weird.

maybe its a “since i cant like myself i need someone else to do it for me” thing? anyways, thanks