My boyfriend of 6 years doesn’t love me anymore

Since October 2025 he has become distant and cold. I pretended everything was fine, but it got harder every day because he became meaner and meaner. Sometimes we fought because it was too much for me. All he ever said was that he was “in a darker place” and that I was making his life harder. But I just tried to reach him.

We planned to spend New Year’s together, but he was so cold and angry that I couldn’t stop myself from confronting him. We got in a huge fight and he stopped seeing me. We used to see each other every weekend at my place, but in 2026 we’ve only met three times.

Our relationship had ups and downs. For me, they were just misunderstandings, but he doesn’t like to communicate, so everything was always “my fault.” Last summer I found out he was commenting on and DMing Instagram girls. It hurt me a lot, but I accepted it, you know how people say “If you can’t change it, accept it.”

He is a very emotionally unavailable person. We almost never hugged, cuddled, or kissed. And that was okay for me.

I love him so much. He is my favorite person in the world. I don’t even know why, but I see him as the ultimate light in my life. Even though we struggled, I believed things would get better. But now he doesn’t even reassure me that he loves me. When I told him he shouldn’t feel guilty for falling out of love with me and that I didn’t need apologies, only time to heal, and he told me I’m a “dementor” and that he can’t always feel bad about my feelings.

My heart is completely broken. I feel it physically. I cry myself to sleep, honestly, I cry all the time. I love him, and I can’t get rid of hope. The fact that we had the happiest summer and then two months later he became so cold is destroying me. He sees me as an enemy and a burden. I even asked him to block me because I keep breaking no contact, but he didn’t.

This amount of pain is too much for me. I don’t know how to handle it.

Sorry for the long story. I have no one to talk to about this, and I just don’t know what to do.