how to get over fear of fomo

so i decided to try again ranked despite all my senses telling me not to, and common klnowledge, and being solo q it makes me wonder why i subject myself to it, and i am wondering how the hell do i quit ranked for good, it is the most insuferable and unfun exoperience ive ever had, and it makes me hate this game, like it kills it for me and makes me bitter.

Why do i do it? well cuz i have extreme poor impulse control and want those coins, and because when a game goes well its amazing, downrigth the best gaming xp ive ever had, that game when all your team member are working perfectly in unison and when u lose u know its not cuz of ur own fault but due to incompetent teammates.

To further illustrate my point i have had team mates that dont kow they were using heal gun, how do i know this? they havent used it even once during a game, or just going solo or in complete diferent places when we should all be attacking one spot, as to not get 3v1 or 3v2 and die, or when we had the complete cashojut win, they decided that raoaming the map for kills was best, or one that left the whole game only to reconecnt last second so we dont even have the leaver bonus sr, and lost a shit ton of sr, i am so done.

Its hard not to play this mode but ig ill have to force myself, why is this game so painfull in solo quee ranked