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Sehnsucht (noun, German): a deep, bittersweet longing or yearning for something familiar, cherished, or lost; an intense emotional ache for a person, place, time, or connection that feels essential but out of reach.”

I loved being your friend. I loved the trust you gave me, the glimpses of yourself you shared, the way we navigated life together, even in small, quiet ways. I carried those moments in my chest like treasures I couldn’t lose. Your presence made the world lighter.

And it hurts.

It hurts to feel so deeply for someone who doesn’t or can’t meet me in the same way. It hurts to give my heart fully in friendship and feel it unreturned, even if you never meant to hurt me.

I don’t blame you. I don’t hate you. I just ache for the bond I thought we had, for the connection I believed could last, for the connection that made me feel so alive. … but turned out to just be a fairytale.

Sigh.