Might end it all lmao (14f)

I don't even have a reason to live anymore it's funny atp. I lost the only 2 friends I had because of my harsh personality, and I'm already distant with my family. All my coping mechanisms, such as SH and gaming, got taken away because it was "unhealthy." So what reason is there to live anymore? I don't have any passions, no friends, or anything. All I do is cause trouble, so what even is the point of me existing? My existence is literally meaningless and does more harm than good.