Lost and unmotivated.

Im fresh into my army career, a year and some months on my belt so far, and just feel extremely unmotivated to do anything army wise. It feels like the only thing in my life and just seems like it eats up most of my time. I'm an 11c and do really love my job, but I have been barely able to do it or had any time on the gun at all. The first biggest issue for me was coming to my unit. It's armored, and I ride around in 113s. I've been more of a mechanic then an actual mortar men which just blows, I joined the army hoping that even just passing basic would give me a sense of pride yet I found barely any of it whilst my loved ones around me did. I envied it questioning why I couldn't feel that pride, and after basic, it just went further down the rabbit hole of suck. I would say Im pretty solid on embracing shit moments and scenarios, but as time has gone on, I've found myself dreading every little thing more. I had aspirations to possibly go rangers and really be somewhere where I felt like I could do some really awesome stuff but that also had me questioning if I was really doing all this for me or If I've been just trying to live up to some standard that I've placed on my self either voluntarily or possibly through media. I try to separate both of my lives evenly and not allow one to bleed into the other but find myself failing at that quite often. I have some hobbies outside of work that I enjoy, but somehow, those haven't been bringing me joy either, and I don't know what's wrong with me. Some people have noticed the way I've been acting and try to converse with me and understand what it could be, but sadly, I can't even find an answer for them, which makes things frustrating. Another thing I've noticed is that I live a very different life morally and in general from many people in the army or at least ones I've met and can't seem to find a place to I guess fit in, my platoon is mixed with some very good people who do care about privates like me which I apperciate alot and try their best to help. I'm not sure what I'm really writing all this for, and I guess maybe just wanna put this out there and see if anyone has any advice. If anyone has any questions, I could try my best to answer them. Thank you to anyone who reads this and / or stops by to chip in their 2 cents. I hope you have a great day.