So sick of myself being insecure…

Basically that.

I’m in a relationship with a great guy who doesn’t give me anything to worry about.

But I’m a step mom so as is obvious, there always has to be the ex wife in the picture. Even though he is open and isn’t giving me anything to worry about I have a constant insecurity plaguing my mind due to past relationship PTSD from being in a relationship where I was being constantly cheated on for 3 years. He works 3 jobs so I don’t have to really work at all and he does so much for me and his kids, but I still sometimes bring up my insecurities which of course is frustrating for him with everything he does for my behalf. I’m reading books and journaling, trying my best but sometimes it just comes out and I have mouth diarrhea. I just wish I could change…