I need someone to talk to

A little backstory, i'm thirty two years old i have a wife We've been married for a little over two years are relationship is very rocky we have both been through a lot together i have bpd and she is not supportive at all ever since my birthday a month ago she has cut me off from everything no hugs no kisses we haven't been intimate and she says she still wants to be with me.But with having bpd and her showing no affection to me Whatsoever is killing me i don't have anyone to talk to I have a therapist and a psychologist but i'm getting no help from them i'm all alone I could really use someone to talk to preferably, someone who has b p d someone who can understand me i suck at texting so talking on the phone is greatly preferred hope to hear from someone anyone I need help