i want out

not a coherent post, just wanted to get this off my chest.

logically speaking, i know you can eventually get out of a toxic and abusive relationship, but right now it feels so hopeless. i don’t know if there are even lingering feelings from the both of us kaya hindi makawala or maybe i’m just so used to this cycle of abuse. alam kong di ko deserve pero in the heat of the moment tatanggapin mo na lang para kumalma lahat. i want out idk what else i can do for him when everything seems so hopeless at this point. sinasabi niya lagi na i haven’t changed when he hasn’t either. it’s not healthy for either of us