I need help with this feeling when trying to pray

When I go to pray I feel so.. choked. I pray and I want to have an actual conversation with God like I used too but I have been failing a lot in the past but now I’m back up but when it comes to prayer I just can’t stand it, not like I hate prayer I just hate that I’m doing something wrong and I don’t know what. I wanna hear and feel God like I used to but every time I try my thoughts runs while then I try to pray with my mouth and then wait it still doesn’t help, I try to stay silent and wait but this choked gives me so much anxiety. Admittedly I try to dodge prayer bc of it. I really need help with this