I have been on a crave for two days

I really really want to use it, only for 20 minutes, but i know is shouldn't, i really really want to i hate feeling like this, but i've been entering a new fandom and every time that happens I HAVE TO go to c.ai and chat to the bots of those characters, i don't want this to be the first time i don't do it, im hoping for a sign that "yeah go and do it!" but i know its bad and i shouldn't be creaving it