I know I’m the AITAH! I need help!

I know I messed up. My husband, his cousin and I went to a concert tonight. I got really drunk and wanted to smoke some 🍃. I found a guy and his brother that have some for me. While I was talking with the brother I had my arm around his waist, (side hug like) and his shoulders, would lean in to listen to him. It looks bad and my husband watched my interaction with him for 30 minutes.

In the last 3 years I’ve lost around 185lbs. I haven’t really been out since I’ve lost the weight. I’m in a town 4 hours from home. I know it’s dumb but I really wanted to know what someone really thought of me and how I looked to a male stranger.

I know I shouldn’t be vain but this is how I’m currently feeling. At times I really don’t know if I’m everything my husband wants sexually.

But I do know that he loves me.

I love my husband with all my heart and never want/ed to hurt him but I know what i did was wrong and it really hurt him and broke his trust.

What can I try and do to repair this!? We’ve been together since 2014, married since 2019. It was a lapse in judgement and wanted stupid validation from a stranger.

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Not that this is anything more than karma but I did get stuck in the bathroom after I got back into the room and had to have someone from downstairs unlock the door to get me out.