idk how should i feel about this.

so i just gonna rant out and vent, if you looking for girlies vent-out sorry it’s not (just save ur time)

about me: half-filipino, born & raised abroad, late 20’s. been back here in ph for around 7 years now, before pandemic pa. i understand tagalog but can’t speak it fluently.

so ayon, this is actually my second encounter and i really don’t know how to move forward living here.

earlier this morning before my shift, my friend (supposedly) called me asking for help with her cpu not working. since im good with comps, i said yeah i can drop by before work. so i went there early and helped her out.

everything was normal at first, she even offered softdrinks. then convo got a bit personal which i didn’t mind.

what really put me off was when she asked, “rhel how can i return the favor?” i was like huh? (sarcastic). i told her it’s normal helping friends, no need for anything back. but she kept insisting like “no, you bothered early morning, tell me.”

to ease it, even tho i wasn’t comfortable, i said “you can tell me whatever you’re feeling, i won’t judge.”

then she straight up asked if im open to seggs in return.

that gave me goosebumps, not in a good way. i’ve known her for years since i got here, but moments like this really make me feel like people still see me as a “foreigner” who’s automatically into that stuff, which is not true at all.

what makes it worse is she’s part of my close circle, so i don’t even know how to look at her now or bring it up.

kinda frustrating too, knowing people assume things about me just because of how i look. i get called babero or “that type” when in reality i didn’t choose how i look—it’s just genetics.

anyway, just needed to get this off my chest. not really looking for sympathy, just wanted to have some advice. if you made it this far, appreciate u fr. might delete this later once i feel better. thankyouu.