I'm scared my mum might die. (Don't read when little!(

I'm scared my mom might die

as stated, I'm scared my mom will end up dead during or after her surgery, shes rather sick, has kidney issues, and overall not the best health, she just got laid off and her surgery should be in these passing months, and I'm scared, she says not to worry and it's not my job too, but I really love her and I haven't treated her as I shouldve in my past, and now, everything is scary, when she gets sick I call her during my lunch break when at school, I sometimes watch her sleep for a bit, and overall helicopter her when I can, if shes going out I almost always go with, and I'm scared that she'll die.

I love her so much and I'm so scared she'll not make it out of the surgery, she has a kidney doner and that's all good, but I'm still scared.

I needed to get this all of my chest and just needed to vent, but I love her and I don't want her to die.