Whole life wasted

Anybody else completely wasted they whole life because of ts? I mean seriously I hate when people say having social anxiety is normal I don’t feel normal at all I want to be able to go with my thoughts but instead overthink everything and have a whole conversation in my head for no reason. I feel like people really don’t understand how life ruining this is, you only live once, so many wasted opportunities and makes normal interactions and everyday activities awkward and weird. I really wish there was an instant cure to this, this is not a normal life to live